June 2010
1 post
Lets follow Alice, and Alice once wrote...
An element of freedom comes with the peace that I have with my heart which is a little bit broken.
The fear for so long was to think about the brokenness, the violation. Maybe its not as bad as i thought though, its draining me slowly, but peaceful. Sometimes I have baby panic attacks, sometimes I’m angry and sometimes I’m quiet.
I’m shocked and frightened by the ability I have...
March 2010
5 posts
Things Change
Things change.
One Day its all the same;
Voices, cries, laughter, anger, violence. peace, joy.
But they were never the same.
They change.
Emotions controlled by the environment,
disbelief in oneself; begets the emergence of anger.
A heart once pure recreates itself
into that of a rock, numb to the arrows thrown its way.
A tear to the re-created heart is deemed impossible;
as its been...
baggage →
WHEN I GROW UP....
When i grow up I feel like i should want to make a difference.
This becomes a problem once i allow myself to accept that what I actually want to do is live a simple, happy little existence by the seaside and write a fictional novel. This is what i dream about when my mind wanders from the Glamour magazine I’m reading (not very subtly) behind my laptop in many an oh so interesting lecture,...
Guilty Secret: sometimes I sit in class in...
Slow it down for now,
Understand what I’m saying…
My lips move, your eyes take care to hear what I’m communicating.
But, no sound rests upon you,
You can’t slow it down.
You just keep on moving.
Swift like Gazelle
Where are you?
You don’t want to know,
Analysis and Annotation
Analysis and Annotation
Slow it down for now, for now? Possible that writer wishes at some point to...
February 2010
4 posts
In thine mere mortal self...
Harmonious tides can wash away such ideas such as love…
The idea of love that stands to be the hope of many.
Thine mere mortal self carries a torch hoping for light…
But never to be lit is the fate of such lanterns….the wicks of which are too be stone cold.
Like the vessel of ones heart also.
What vessel is this that believes in the ability to travel?
To move from one...
10 things I want right now...
1. Marc Jacobs ‘Lola’ perfume.
2. A Cwtch.
3. The DVD ‘The Proposal’ on my shelf.
4. To never witness the smurf sex as seen on Avatar again.
5. The ability to write a best selling novel.
6. The new Blackberry Bold.
7. The ability to wake up before 10am without wanting to hurt someone a little bit.
8. The effects of the gym without going to the gym.
9. The PURPLE...
January 2010
6 posts
Teach me how place the displaced emotions...
Am I rejecting the normal? Am I aspiring for something extraordinary? But my aspirations fall short.
I am naive in my understanding of my true hearts desires, however, I know the simplicity of wanting to be loved very well. This simplicity is a companion of mine; friend or foe? For I sometimes wish it away and feel stronger than it; personifying it as an enemy, infiltrating and distracting me.
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“So…Im meant to say profound, thought provoking, deep, interesting,...”
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– ‘Grace is an aggressive forgiveness.’
