Lets follow Alice, and Alice once wrote…
An element of freedom comes with the peace that I have with my heart which is a little bit broken.
The fear for so long was to think about the brokenness, the violation. Maybe its not as bad as i thought though, its draining me slowly, but peaceful. Sometimes I have baby panic attacks, sometimes I’m angry and sometimes I’m quiet.
I’m shocked and frightened by the ability I have developed to hide everything, to camouflage the worst. And now there’s a conscience?
I’m worried that its too soon but I trust in you.
This is to trust that you have given me not just peace, but strength that surpasses all understanding.
I think the revelation of the root of it all allows the understanding to emerge that when one believes a lie then one wants the crime to fit the lie so one keeps commiting the crime.
Finally one knows that the crime creates the lie and the it is better to be restored by truth.
So its hard but Alice can be strong now because Alice’s strength is found in you, and your love is strong.
And you loved me Alice first.
